Spoony the Pussy One: Life is in the Render Queue

[VoiceOfReasonPast]

In fact, come to think of it, Voice is oddly sympathetic to the Warthog. And he was quick to accuse that guest of being her....

My knees and hips are alright. It's just my wrists that hurt like shit due to my constant jerking off god-tier pro-gaming.

AFAIK, you don't need gamepad, you can go with your own keyboard.
Also, isn't there freeware shit in this pile of fuck? I've thought there was something like that and only difference is lower quality (from 4K to something more realistic even for shitty interwebz connection) and just waiting?

I assume that there are some freebies to lure people in, but streaming games like this eats up bandwith like a mofo. I don't think that's very cheap.

[Guest]

Dear Noah/Spoony,
Have you ever been disappointed in someone so much that you feel that your faith in them is starting to shake and yet want to keep on hoping that things would get better and they would be okay?

That is how I feel about you. Yes, the one whom I have been following closely for a year and whose work has made me laugh and get through many rough patches in my life over the course of a year. I care about you a lot and want to be a friend to you and yet I’m disgusted by your behavior and how you treat those who once considered you as a friend and co-worker. Maybe it’s because I was once in your shoes, not caring about everyone and everything around me and behaving like a selfish, immature bitch.

Every tweet you post on your Twitter page is a painful reminder of what I used to be, of all of the mistakes I made and all of the people I hurt because of my actions in the past. I could have easily walked away from you and not look back but I won’t because I believe that there is still a shred of a good man left in you. My only hope is that there are still people in your life who care enough to let that small piece of goodness shine through and that you have friends who will not give up on you.
Also, I’m sorry for what happened a few nights ago when I posted that tweet about how your tweets were pissing me off. I know I’ve already apologized for that but I feel that the apology I gave was half-assed and not good enough because I didn’t go into details as to why. So here it is, I was angry at my best friend/surrogate brother because he had someone else call me to tell me that he was okay after he had sent me a text letting me know that he would call me later. I was angry, annoyed, confused and hurt that he would do something like that to me, his best friend. When I saw the tweets you were posting, all of the anger that I suppressed just burst through and you were the unfortunate target of my wrath. It was wrong that I took my anger out on you, I admit it and it was unfair that you had to deal with that. Again, I’m really sorry that I did that to you. I hope you understand that it wasn’t my intention to upset you more than you already were at that point.
Do you remember this little moment in the pic, Noah?

That’s me from a year ago during a rough period of my life where I was losing my smile. But meeting you at ConBravo last July was one of two only happy times I had in 2011 (second being reunited with my best friend/surrogate brother after a year and half of not seeing each other). I wanted to strike up a conversation with you and get to know you but I was so shy and nervous that I couldn’t even approach you without feeling extremely anxious (result of generalized anxiety disorder which is what I have in addition to depression). What I’m trying to say is that you gave me back my smile when you took that picture with me even if it was for a short while. For that, I thank you for giving me a reason to smile that day even if how that picture came about was pretty embarrassing.
I hope to be a friend to you one day but right now all I can do is wait and see where life takes you (and me of course). Just remember, I will be one of the few who will stand by you and will always care. I will never leave and I’m not going anywhere no matter what anyone says to me. I don’t believe that you are a hopeless case and I have faith in you despite it being shaken that you will get through this. If and when you do see the light, I will be waiting.

Peace always and with care and love,
Rachel Baker (RaeAngel07)

[Guest]

June 22, 2012
Je T’aime, Mon Ami (I Love You, My Friend)

This posting is once again Spoony-related but it’s not another open letter to him. It’s actually a poem that I wrote with him in mind as I was writing it. It was inspired by a bunch of depressing tweets he posted on his Twitter page back in August 2011. Here it is.

In the darkness, I hear a sound

It is a sound not unfamiliar to me.

The sound of someone crying out, begging to be loved

To be held and to have their tears washed away

But has the ever constant fear of rejection in their heart

Just like me

I follow the sound of crying and what do I find?

I see a man standing before me

His eyes filled with tears of a broken heart not yet mended

His face with the expression of sadness, loneliness and despair

He looks at me with a look in his eyes as if he is begging me to love him

To hold him as he cries in despair and sadness

To say to him “I’m here and I understand”

I walk over to him, open my arms and took him in an embrace

I hold him as he cries and sobs in my arms

I stroke his hair and kiss him on top of his head like a mother would do to her child

As he continues to cry on my shoulder, I whisper softly in his ear

“Don’t be afraid to love and to be loved. I will always be here with you”.

As I continue to hold the crying man in my arms, I hear him say to me through his tears

“Thank you”.

As tears ran down my own face, I say to him gently

“You’re welcome. Je t’aime, mon ami “.

— Rachel Baker, 2011

[Dingus Bajingus]

In fact, come to think of it, Voice is oddly sympathetic to the Warthog. And he was quick to accuse that guest of being her....

My knees and hips are alright. It's just my wrists that hurt like shit due to my constant jerking off god-tier pro-gaming.

I like how you crossed out the less shameful of the two.

[Guest]

I may have stumbled upon another nutcase fan of spoopy

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[Guest]

I may have stumbled upon another nutcase fan of spoopy

that's the only kind of fan that he still has

[Kugelfisch]

No money for a warm jacket? I bought one from Woolworth for 3€ this year because they were shut down during lockdown and marked down everything like crazy to get rid of stock.
Imagine trying to tell people you can't find a cheap warm jacket in current times in fucking Canada!

[rabidtictac]

Thrift stores are full of cheap warm jackets. There's always someone too fat or sick or aids-infected to get enough use out of their jacket, so they donate it.

[Moe Bitches]

It's the second coming of Hey Zeus!

[Guest]

Do thrift stores have jackets in her size though? She's like 6' 5" and 300 lbs.